This is two days before my fourth attempt at down regulation is measured as successful or otherwise.
I have had the required aspiration and the continuing inhalation of Synarel.

Monday is monday and my God, has it been a busy week – and this is only the end of the first day of the week. Lots of fire fighting at work – not a very healthy way to work, that is for sure.

The weekend was both mourning and laughter.
Saturday saw the funerals of two people I knew – one from my childhood and the other from my senior secondary school. Both so young and not deserving to die.
One young and with so much potential and love to give, having lived a hard and difficult life. The other with a family and young children – who will miss their mother no matter what else happens to them in life. They will perhaps be the worse off for it, having lost their mother so early in life.
In times like this, I ask whether God’s time is the best. I am a realist and I know people die, it is the circle of life. But really? How can this be justified and how can God allow this to happen. Someone would probably say it is the law of probability – someone must die and someone must be born, it is life.
But none of this makes sense sometimes – a nine year old niece of a friend was buried on friday as well. Why would God who knows best take a little girl who is yet to start living, start making an impact, be taken so cruelly from their parents and family.
In the end it is faith that holds us all together, in the knowledge that God truely knows best and his time is the best.
But it was also joy as all my family on this side of the pond were together, doing what families do best – being there for each other and generally eating good food 🙂
Sunday really should be called fam-day (family day). It is times like these that one is grateful for all the things that one has. One is also able to appreciate the fact that no matter who and what you are, family is what makes it all worthwhile.

But I digress from the issue at hand.

My body is now officially confirmed as stubborn. I have not experienced or noticed myself experiencing any of the issues that were highlighted as potential side effects of Synarel – no sweats, no mood swings (though perhaps I should probably ask MDH), no headaches etc. It is unlikely that my body would have “obeyed” my explicit instructions to down regulate 🙂

Hopefully wednesday’s scan and blood work will result in a positive test though – meaning reduced uterus lining and oestrogen lower than 200. Should this occur, I can start the FSH injections on thursday evening.
All I can do now is keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best.

We are now two full weeks behind the original “schedule” the clinic was hoping to have us on.

I am keeping my hopes up and wishing for the best on wednesday.
Thank you for reading and see you on wednesday.
xx